Well, at least the year is almost over

So, my ex-boyfriend talked to me on Fb for the first time since we broke up and I am glad he apologized for the stuff he had done, I just don't think we can even be friends at this point. I forgive him what he did but he is married and expecting a child. Plus I have been making some super poor decisions lately so I have been having a rough few weeks. I met this guy named Tony last weekend. He is pretty cute and he seems sweet. I have already slept with him a few times and we only met last Saturday....I'm so stupid. I really want him to know that I want to know him as a person and know his heart. I don't care what he could do for me sexually. I doubt he will even try to get to know me since I am easy...I am failing at life right now. :( I feel if I talk to my friend Sam, she will get upset with me and tell me I suck at life. She did that once and it really upset me. I'm so stuck...