It's Funny

You know it is weird how you hope and wish for someone to talk to you or text to and when you actually go out of your way to contact them, they don't respond...I just wish I wasn't someone that cared so much. I know this guy is never going to want me. Maybe because I am just too needy. Actually, I know I am too needy. I hate this. I hate that I want so much attention from guys and I know sometimes I won't get it. On another note, I am now a graduate of Murray State. I am an alumni! Maybe that is another reason why this wouldn't work....I am going back home and this guy will be here. I'm sure he will find someone else way prettier and cooler. Sigh. Shoot.

Well, at least the year is almost over

So, my ex-boyfriend talked to me on Fb for the first time since we broke up and I am glad he apologized for the stuff he had done, I just don't think we can even be friends at this point. I forgive him what he did but he is married and expecting a child. Plus I have been making some super poor decisions lately so I have been having a rough few weeks. I met this guy named Tony last weekend. He is pretty cute and he seems sweet. I have already slept with him a few times and we only met last Saturday....I'm so stupid. I really want him to know that I want to know him as a person and know his heart. I don't care what he could do for me sexually. I doubt he will even try to get to know me since I am easy...I am failing at life right now. :( I feel if I talk to my friend Sam, she will get upset with me and tell me I suck at life. She did that once and it really upset me. I'm so stuck...