Awkward week? Awkward week.

So, I know I keep talking about this guy in my volleyball but I'm super attracted to him and it sucks since he is taken. I'm doing my best to forget about him or even the thought of him and me. It just won't happen, I don't understand why I can't accept that. Ugh, maybe I'm just nuts. I dunno. Tomorrow I am doing engagement pics with my bestie and her fiance. I'm ready to kinda get outta the house for a little bit and take a break from studying. I'm going to die this week because I have one test after the other on Tuesday and Wednesday :/ but I will try to be positive :)

The craziness of life

So I got to hang out with my friend, Em last night and we watched an old school R.L. Stine movie that was kind of weird. It was about a kid at school who was being bullied because he enjoyed bugs and science class. He figures out that he can talk to bugs and they understand him so he decides to scare the crap out of this bully at school. All of these roaches appear out of no where and attack the dude until the kid calls them back and the kid purposely steps on a roach and the bugs turn against him and kill him in the end. Creepy and depressing. I need to study more for my test but how does one study for a test when the questions are mostly opinion based? I dunno.

Eh...

So for some reason, I feel like I have been off today. I was a  little upset because I didn't get to speak to the cute guy in my class. I know it would never happen but it is nice to dream. Ironically, we talked about being too absorbed in our imagination that we miss out on reality. But really the conclusion was that you have to have a balance of reality and imagination. For instance, I can daydream about the hot guy and pretend he is dating me but in reality, I know it couldn't happen. I am okay with it, I just think I've been thinking about him a lot since my bf and I broke up two weeks ago. I dunno, I'm kind of pathetic.

Destroying Shakespeare and other stories

So, I am about to annihilate Shakespeare in the sense that I will now complete my homework before I go hang out and exercise with a friend. I got to hang out with Emily the other day which really helped me to kind of take a few minutes and relax. It really helped me not to think of the craziness that's been going on around me. I miss seeing her as much since she got two jobs but hey, I guess that is just life sometimes. I turned in my Student Teacher packet to teach next Fall. It is really weird to do that. now. I just have to get through the Spring semester and hope I can at least pass the last practicum class with a B. Ugh, this is killing me. I just want to graduate. :/

I'm going to see some bulls...wait. what?

So I am hanging out with my friends, Jenelle and Sam tonight or tomorrow to go see a rodeo type thing. I am kind of confused as to what it is really, all I know is that there are bulls. We are kind of secretly looking for Jenelle a guy and of course, I'm not really going to look at guys unless they are cute of course ;). I know I couldn't date someone yet due to me trying to get over my ex. Hey, I guess being friends with guys is always a nice thing and then seeing what happens. Really, not too much has been going on. I have been creeping some people from high school on my Facebook and it amazes me how many people have had kids. Did I miss something? Was I supposed to have kids at an early age? Hm, I guess I missed out. I'm not being smart, I just know I couldn't personally take care of a kid if I was 16. Some people can and that's good. I'm kind of being a slacker right now and delaying my homework until tomorrow, but it will be done.

Randomness of crazy

So, I found out my boyfriend cheated on me and we broke up. Yeah, it really sucks. I wish I could sit here and tell you I have no feelings left for him at all. There is a small part of me that still has feelings for him but I know it would never work. Most of my feelings for him are now feelings of friendship. I know I sound crazy by still wanting to be his friend one day but I forgave him, he just screwed up by thinking he could get revenge on this girl by making her think he still had feelings for her. Screwed up? Yes. No one should ever hurt anyone that much. On the upside, there are two attractive men in my volleyball class that kind of help with the pain. It's nice having eye candy to look at. Just a little hard still. But one of the guys was super nice to me and was telling me about how he and his gf met, it was really sweet. Um, so update from my last post, Uncle Frank passed away...it really upsets me because he was such a sweet man but I guess sometimes it happens, unfortunately :(. I think that's about it really. My friends are really helping me get through this, I dunno what would happen if I didn't have them.