Getting Rid of Negativity

So, today I ended up deleting most of my co workers but 3 of them. Why? Because they're immature and want to try to cause problems between other workers. I'm done. I'm learning to get rid of people that cause issues. Once again I find myself wanting more out of my life. I have no idea what it is. I wish I had my own place and that I wasn't with my family. I am saving up as much as I can to move away. However, I need a job before I can even think of moving. Life I feel is sort of unfair. I see all these people moving on and doing stuff with their lives and I feel that it is never going to happen for me. I get bored just working and not going to new places. Once again, I need money for that as well. Sorry that this is so negative. I just get upset.

Spring :)

So glad it is finally spring time. I was able to pull off a four day weekend so ended up not working today. So glad I got to have a break from work too. Got some better news from my sister who has been having issues. She and her husband were forced to give up their house but are gonna move in with his relatives. She may be moving back to Kentucky with him. I am hoping that is what happens. It is financially difficult to get up to Maryland to visit. I have been feeling kind of bad lately. I feel that I dunno where my life is going right now. I am not happy living at home. I know right now I financially can't afford my own place. I know a lot of people think I am being a bum and just not moving to live off my parents. It'd be awesome having my own place again. However, the only thing around here are crazy small apartments that are overpriced. Anyway, something nice to talk about, I am so ready for summer. Can't wait to spend more time outside.

New piercings, money savings, and loans

Last night I went on and finally got my tragus pierced. I did have to spend a little more than usual because I have to use titanium. I know, my ears are too fancy for their own good. I am super happy with my piercing. I am really hoping it will work out that this one will be one to keep. My loan people have been driving me up the wall with their, "Oh, you owe a huge amount of money" and then emailing me and saying I really don't owe anything....really? Make up your minds. Mom was talking to me about taking out a sum of money each month to save for whatever reason. A good idea, I think. It could go toward a new car or something. Also, random thing. Recently, I have been hearing of people getting lots of divorces. This seriously saddens me. It makes me feel that love is sort of tossed away, that somehow people nowadays are getting married just to say they're married. Love, I do still believe in you.

Forgot About This Thing

Completely forgot about this thing but thanks to a friend, (he knows who he is). So, I will have to update a little bit. Been a bit stressed out with a few things. Mainly, one of things I am concerned about is the guy I have been talking to may be moving to New York within a few months...I'll be honest, I have had a few doubts about us but you know what? He's sweet and he treats me well so I am just seeing what happens. I found out today that my cousin, Tim, passed away after a long journey of sickness. I always wonder why the sweet always seem to go before the horrible ones. It hurt pretty bad learning he passed. But in other news, my friend, TJ, called and cleared up some stuff for me. I really appreciate him doing that for me. Oh, I made a resolution to stay off of my phone as much as possible. So far, I haven't been doing too bad. Another thing, if you're not already, you should read Arkham Manor, there are so many crazy things that happen! Well, friends, I am going to get off of here. I'll check back in a bit.

Early Birthday Celebration

Went to Wild Horse Saloon last night with my best friend and her fiance. Had a wonderful time! It was pretty packed. They had a huge dance floor and about three other floors. No one really knew how to line dance though. A little bummed I didn't go to more than one place but it was still awesome! Been talking to different men on this app and let me tell you, I am almost ready to give up. I feel as if I always end up talking to men first then when we have a conversation, I am the only person talking. I'm so awkward....

Updates

So, Tyler was ignoring me because he ended up dating someone/talking to someone. They're broken up now. Also met JT back in July. He acted all interested and everything and about a month ago, his texts are almost non existent. I think my life usually ends up with the person I am actually interested in will be interested and then drops me. I don't get it. I am not creepy to them or anything and then they ignore me...JT is very much someone that is sweet but he was super hurt this past Spring by his ex fiance. So I get that he doesn't want to jump in to something but how can he be flirty and talkative with me and then just stop talking to me? Don't get it. I am just seeing how things turn out with him for now. I may talk to him about how I feel...I hope that brave anyway. I may not. Who knows?

Meeting new people doesn't always work out

I haven't updated this thing in a while so here it goes. I recently joined this dating site called Tinder. Basically it shows you guys that are in your area and you decide if they're cute or interesting. If they match up with you, you can chat with them and possibly meet them. I started talking someone named Tyler. Ironically, my friend Jess, was trying to set us up before he popped up on my Tinder. Everything was going real cool, right? We even met up and he kept complimenting me and being super nice. I got his number and we texted some. Texted him a week ago, he didn't respond. I assumed he was busy seeing as how he's manager of GNC. Ended up texting him today and still have gotten no answer but yet, he has been online on Tinder...what? If you honestly don't even want a friendship with me, just say so. You don't have to go through the trouble of ignoring me, then. Also, it was super contradictory that he was all complimentary and wanted to hang afterward and then ignore me...wtf? People are dumb