Future plans

I keep looking and researching jobs all over the place. I have been looking at jobs in Savannah, Clarksville, and if an occasional decent job pops up around here. So far, nothing has really panned out for me. I am gonna save up and make a trip to stay a few days in Savannah looking for jobs. I know that my future isn't going to progress the way I hope it will if I just stay around this area.Then again, the fun is all about not knowing where we will be. It is a mystery. I have a photo session coming up that is inspired by the movie, "Up." It is a vintage session with A LOT of balloons. A little nervous considering I am a very awkward model. Still haven't found my shoes to wear with my dress. I know, such a minor.

Easy Week

Honestly don't have much to do this week, which is nice.I talked with one of my old besties the other day. She apologized for basically abandoning all of us. As in she hasn't been part of my life in years and she actually said she was sorry she wasn't in mine or our other friends' lives. It doesn't change the fact that we will not be the friends were once were but it does make me feel a lot better and it has taken away some anger I had. I had needed to hear her say she was sorry for so long. I need to call today about a job opportunity in Clarksville, TN. I got annoyed because I emailed both the supervisor from TN that contacted me and the supervisor at MSU I needed to fill out the form because supposedly, my two letters of recommendation weren't signed. To top it off, my old thrid grade supervising teacher did NOT respond to my email either when I asked her for a letter of recommendation.....I am seriously done. I get that people are busy sometimes but even just an email saying, "Hey, I will get this to you by such and such" would work. I just need to know they actually got my emails...DANG.

Ready for something new

 I am thinking I'm going to move out of Kentucky..I did get to talk with a principal at a school a friend works for and she told me that she would pretty much interview me if I passed the phone interview. I could actually have my first teaching job. Only problem is that if my state exams don't transfer over to TN, I have to take three more tests that are now $100 a piece. Sigh, life is too hard sometimes.  I just wish if I wasn't going to teach, I could still have a good paying job. (I know, unrealistic). My grandma had 2 strokes last month and has now lost her side vision. She can't drive anymore at all, which means I have to take her places. That's alright. I am really just glad she is okay. Been a little upset that I also found out my sister is moving away to Maryland. I really am gonna miss her. I will have to be sure to call her and see how things are up there. I know I am silly for being sad over it but my sis and I have always gotten along with each other. It will be hard not seeing her :(.

Happy birthday, Sara!

I wanted to say a happy birthday to my friend, Sara today! I miss her a lot! Hanging out in Paducah today for a bit before work. Still have been looking at different jobs and so far nothing has really popped up. I have also realized the older I get, the more I have less time for bull crap. I think I am finally to the point where I actually see people for who they really are now. Either that or I have just became a jerk in my old age. Don't know anymore sometimes. Try to be sweet and people just push me over anyway. I realize that life is gonna give me a pile of crap some days and one of friends once said, "If life gives you crap, use it for fertilizer". So I guess that is what I am about to do with the difficult and annoying days in my life.

Belly dance pics!

So I got to re-do my belly dance photos! I am so excited to see how the others turned out! The photographer I have been working with is super talented. I totally recommend going to her if you ever want your pictures done. She also did the pictures of my and my sis. I get to see the rest on Friday! :)

Nose piercing

So, Wednesday I got my nose pierced. I am so glad it wasn't painful and it will be my final piercing since my conch didn't really work out. Haven't really been up to much. I am going to try to go to a concert soon with one of my friends. Can't wait! Also, Monday is pay day! :) I need to do my exercises today. I didn't really do them for two days and am afraid I will be really super sore afterward. Oh well, I guess I will see. I have been having severe back pain and will go to see the chiropractor this week. Maybe it is just because I haven't been in such a while that it is hurting. I dunno.

Anger solves nothing.

Trying to learn that I need to just forgive people instead of letting their mistakes anger me. So many people I have trusted or thought I could trust, have really hurt me recently. I have been in situations today that have really frustrated me and almost made me lose my temper. Being angry solves nothing. I have such a short time to deal with disappointments and pain. Not saying I will never be disappointed or hurt because I know I will be. I just have to trust my friends and family to help me through it. So starting today, I am starting a new look on life. Today, I really do forgive those that have hurt me or angered me. I am looking past those problems and pain. I know that once I forget it, I will feel better.