Poetry Night on Friday

So, there is this local coffee shop here close to where I live. They have Poetry Night every Friday from 8pm-10:30pm. I have been trying to get some friends to go with me so I am not the awkward person that is sitting alone. My friend, Sara told me that it isn't awkward unless you really think it is awkward. She also reassured me that I can bring my laptop and get there early for coffee. Granted, I won't stay until 10:30pm probably but this will be something I haven't done before and I need to do something to not be stressed.

Also, here's a post that isn't sad or angry

I feel as if all I post are angry or sad posts. I really am not an angry or sad person. So, I just wanted to post something that was a little less sad and angry. I get to see my friends the weekend after this one to celebrate my birthday. I think we are going to Fat Moe's to drink and just talk with each other. I miss a lot of my friends back in Murray. I can't wait to see them!

Hopefully things get easier

So, this whole getting over ex thing is harder than I expected it to be. It is almost stupid how hard it is. We only dated two weeks, that isn't a big deal. Plus, I think he is going after someone else....after he told me he just wanted to be single for a while. I think I am a little angry at him not only because I feel as if he couldn't tell me he wanted to see someone else, but because I basically told him I wanted to be his friend and he never responded to me....what? I mean, that is sort of stupid to me.

Happy birthday, grandma!

So the guy I was seeing broke up with me. He told me he wanted to remain single for now aka, he wants to see someone else. It is fine, I just sort of wished he would have told me he wasn't nuts about me in the beginning. I was hoping he and I could still be friends but I am not so sure that will be happening. It sort of stinks. Today is my grandma's 80th birthday! She totally doesn't look her age at all. Maybe this means I will age gracefully when I am older? (I hope.)

Starting Over

So I didn't realize how super nuts I was with talking about Tony or anyone else I was interested in seeing. I need to just seriously be patient and stop making stupid decisions. I need to start doing things for me and be happy. Not be selfish, there is a difference. But I need to actually see how certain things could benefit me. I have made some horrible mistakes and I think it is time to put them behind me and think of my future.I need to be able to tell myself all of my positives instead of seeing everything negative about myself. It will be super hard for me to do this but I think it may help me. I feel as if I only write on this when my life is nuts but this really helps me with issues I am having. Today, I am going to relax and workout. Today, I start having a positive attitude.

Awkward Moments

So I don't really have a lot of awkward moments to talk about but I did have a friend get super mad at me and accused me of not trusting him. He knows I have some issues I am working with. I can't talk to him about them because I am working through them on my own. He doesn't understand this. He got so mad at me that he stopped talking to me and hasn't even talked with me the entire day. Honestly, it is super stupid and he needs to really get over it. On another note, I am starting to train for a half marathon next week. I found a cool schedule to help me start doing it. It will be the first time I have ever ran 13 miles if I can pull it off by the end of the 12 weeks. Not too much has really happened, really. Oh, I have a Mud Run this Saturday! It will be super cool although I am sort of nervous about the obstacles.

Being nice

Update on a few things. Found out my friend, Nate isn't moving after all. He is about two hours away still but I am so glad he won't be super far. Recently, I have been super emotional and I really think it is because I have been thinking about stuff in my life. I look back at all of my bad decisions and even though I know that they weren't right, I know that I can always start over. I can't really go into detail about them but I have been struggling with some stuff. I haven't really any self worth in myself. It is sad but I have been trying to be positive. I also haven't been sleeping very much. I have only gotten three hours. I need to exercise/run today. Oh, one more thing, my sister and I had a vintage photo shoot! :) We finally got all of our pictures done! I need order them but  unfortunately, I can only really afford smaller prints. But needless to say our pictures turned out amazing! Here is a little sneak peak.

Ran and I