Waiting is always hard

The good news and update from my old post is that I ended up becoming the teacher at the preschool and was also promoted to Assistant Director. We got rid of the 1 year old teacher because she was causing issues between the workers and stole from dietary department. She should've been gone long ago but it is over now. Thought a guy I was texting was interested un me but the past few times we have messaged each other, I've always had to start the conversation. I'm sorry but don't waste time if you aren't gonna put effort in talking with me. I dunno. Been pretty blah recently. I've had to help my parents with expenses and at this rate, I won't have enough to save up for my own place. It has been sad. Sorry my posts have been depressing.

New Job Opportunity

Found out today that the teacher for preschool at the company I work for will be leaving next Tuesday. I am so happy! My boss told me that I would probably be taking over as a teacher. For those who don't know, I have been in sort of a weird depressing state in my life where I felt that teaching wasn't for me anymore. However, after finding out that my schedule would allow me to leave work early and give me an opportunity to see if teaching is for me or not, I decided to see how teaching turns out. In all honesty. actually teaching may not be for me anymore but daycare lessons are way different and easier than elementary lessons.

Getting Rid of Negativity

So, today I ended up deleting most of my co workers but 3 of them. Why? Because they're immature and want to try to cause problems between other workers. I'm done. I'm learning to get rid of people that cause issues. Once again I find myself wanting more out of my life. I have no idea what it is. I wish I had my own place and that I wasn't with my family. I am saving up as much as I can to move away. However, I need a job before I can even think of moving. Life I feel is sort of unfair. I see all these people moving on and doing stuff with their lives and I feel that it is never going to happen for me. I get bored just working and not going to new places. Once again, I need money for that as well. Sorry that this is so negative. I just get upset.

Spring :)

So glad it is finally spring time. I was able to pull off a four day weekend so ended up not working today. So glad I got to have a break from work too. Got some better news from my sister who has been having issues. She and her husband were forced to give up their house but are gonna move in with his relatives. She may be moving back to Kentucky with him. I am hoping that is what happens. It is financially difficult to get up to Maryland to visit. I have been feeling kind of bad lately. I feel that I dunno where my life is going right now. I am not happy living at home. I know right now I financially can't afford my own place. I know a lot of people think I am being a bum and just not moving to live off my parents. It'd be awesome having my own place again. However, the only thing around here are crazy small apartments that are overpriced. Anyway, something nice to talk about, I am so ready for summer. Can't wait to spend more time outside.

New piercings, money savings, and loans

Last night I went on and finally got my tragus pierced. I did have to spend a little more than usual because I have to use titanium. I know, my ears are too fancy for their own good. I am super happy with my piercing. I am really hoping it will work out that this one will be one to keep. My loan people have been driving me up the wall with their, "Oh, you owe a huge amount of money" and then emailing me and saying I really don't owe anything....really? Make up your minds. Mom was talking to me about taking out a sum of money each month to save for whatever reason. A good idea, I think. It could go toward a new car or something. Also, random thing. Recently, I have been hearing of people getting lots of divorces. This seriously saddens me. It makes me feel that love is sort of tossed away, that somehow people nowadays are getting married just to say they're married. Love, I do still believe in you.

Forgot About This Thing

Completely forgot about this thing but thanks to a friend, (he knows who he is). So, I will have to update a little bit. Been a bit stressed out with a few things. Mainly, one of things I am concerned about is the guy I have been talking to may be moving to New York within a few months...I'll be honest, I have had a few doubts about us but you know what? He's sweet and he treats me well so I am just seeing what happens. I found out today that my cousin, Tim, passed away after a long journey of sickness. I always wonder why the sweet always seem to go before the horrible ones. It hurt pretty bad learning he passed. But in other news, my friend, TJ, called and cleared up some stuff for me. I really appreciate him doing that for me. Oh, I made a resolution to stay off of my phone as much as possible. So far, I haven't been doing too bad. Another thing, if you're not already, you should read Arkham Manor, there are so many crazy things that happen! Well, friends, I am going to get off of here. I'll check back in a bit.